i was supposed to wake up at 530 to get to church by 6 for morning prayer, but ended up sleeping till 7. then i fell in and out of sleep while watching some shows. when i woke up for real, i watched over my dogs, got ready for school, and headed out. class was horrifically boring, but thankfully i read the textbook so i understood everything. after class, i met joanne and we talked as i drove her home. i then went to the hardware store to buy screws for my door hinge, and went home and fixed it. i walked my dog, and made plans with andy to get wednys. we went, ate, talked, went to dunkin, then i drove him home. headed out to brooklyn to pick up my mom, then drove home. all in all i guess it was a productive day. i hope daylight savings doesnt screw me over
its impossible to watch this and be sad
felt like a saturday more than a friday. woke up finished a little book that i started reading. then watched shows, upon shows, upon shows. ate with my parents after running to the bank and the market. rested some more, then got ready to head out. took the lirr, waited at port, the bus eun was on ended up being REALLY late so i decided to go to ippudo and wait for seats. they told me 45 minutes which ended up being closer to an hour, but it was fine cause eun came after around 30 minutes. we talked, ate dinner, talked, got gelato, talked. you get the picture. i honestly feel like i live for days like these. it makes me really excited for Maryland. i hope it happens, but you never know with these kinda things. then we went a little uptown to a bar for a friends siblings bday party. i went mainly to show face, but i ended up having a good time. still cant get mysefl to drink though… the drink was mostly coke instead of jack but the taste still got me feeling like gaging. my body must be scarred from last time. i had around 1/3 of a jack and coke before my friend finished it for me. thank God for friends
thursday i had class. it took a very long time in order to find parking, but i ended up going to class only a couple minutes late, still in time for attendance. i paid attention to class and was excited when it ended. afterwards, i got a haircut. finally! no more annoying bangs itching at my forehead. i then went home, ate, relaxed, and watched many shows and programs while doing some work. it was very relaxing at first but got annoying fast as my room got stuffy with artificial heat and inadequate ventilation. i decided to go outside, so i brought dori with me and walked him. after washing him up, i picked up my mom from brooklyn, ate, relaxed some more. i downloaded some books, cleaned some files i didnt need on my laptop, and started fiddling with a new program called calibre. it seems like a very useful tool to read books with. i asked my sister if she still has a kindle and if she uses it. she said she never figured it out so she would give it to me under one condition; that i let her borrow it from time to time. i also had a couple dreams while sleeping.
my first dream was about me having skin cancer on my leg. i think that has to do with multiple factors. first, i recently read the fault in our stars. second, the other day, the skin behind my leg was particularly sensitive. third, Eun had a dream recently in which she had wrist cancer.
another dream i had was about my dad having lice. modern family had an episode recently about lice. in the dream, we went to bloomingdales in order to buy lice shampoo. in the movie delivery man (which i watched on the same day) one of the daughters of vince vaughn found a job at bloomingdales. its fun these days having dreams
late nights still awake. sleep creeping in your eyes but they refuse to close. happiness and longing for you to be here. waking up and saying good morning in confidence, knowing that the world can’t help but to smile on beauty such as you. more than obsession and lust. its sharing the small moments together. the first thought of the day and the last thought of the night.
Ed Sheeran- Lego House
I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
and out of all these things I’ve done, I think I love you better now
I’m out of sight, I’m out of mind
I’ll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I’ve done, I think I love you better now
interesting day. spent a lot of the day doing nothing, and the rest of the day doing nothing in class. got a good amount of work done when i finally got alone time, and to be honest today was still the least productive day in a long time. hopefully tomorrow is better.
on another note, i’m trying to lucid dream. maybe then my dreamscape would allow me to ponder important questions or do fun things while i’m stuck in a usually mundane cycle of not living, but existing. also, i’m getting a hair cut tomorrow (or at least i plan to)